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Friday, July 13, 2007

Sygku Nabil & Warda...

Kalau bibil and wawa da besar bacelah ape ayah nak beritahu kamu....

On the 130707...few hours ago...ayah had a big fight wit ibu....ibu thinks dat im playing behind her back but im not....ayah loves ibu so much....i love her more than my life...ayah wouldnt do stupid things behind her...ayah menyesal kerana pinjamkan org hp ayah yg tk seberapa...ayah sanggup dari keje dan tgh keje turon tempat ibu hanya ingin memberitahu segala kebenaran....ayah pinjamkn hp sebab ayah nak jadi org yang baek....tanak jadi jahat....

Jadilah anak yg soleh dan solehah....dgr ckp ibu...jgn buat die marah....lau bibil ngan wawa ade kat sini bersama ayah....u can see im crying so bad....im crying for ibu....i cant live in this world w/o her...ibu bnyk manjekan ayah...nanny wati pon tau yg ayah sygkn ibu sngt2....ayah almost commit suicide...tapi bibil ngan wawa jgn uat gitu....ingat tuhan dan ingat ayah dan ibu...ayah tak tahan dgn kesedihan kat dlm hati ayah nie....ayah terlalu sedih....ayah harap bibil n wawa dpt memberikn kebahagiaan kepada ibu....syurga terletak di telapak kaki ibu tau....jage lah diri kamu bila dah dewasa nant....always think bout LOVE, CARE N CONCERN

bile time ibu ngan ayah muda....kte asyik menyebut nama bibil n wawa....ayah da bersumpah pada diri sendiri...ayah tanak hidup tanpa ibu....ayah syg sngt kat ibu tau....ayah akn cuba sedaya utk memberi kebahagiaan utk keluarga kte....we dont want u to go thru wad we've gone thru....ingat syg....jagelah diri...jagelah ibu....solat jgn lupe....

Mummy...if u reading this i juz wana say im sorry....i dun wana live w/o u....ayah btol2 nk tanggung ibu,bibil n wawa.....biarlah ayah tk dpt menjamah sesuap nasi....aslkn ibu,bibil dan wawa tk lapar kebuluran....

bibil n wawa.....nie gmbar ayah n ibu....bibil n wawa will look juz like us....

Nabil dan Warda jage diri....Ayah syg Ibu,bibil n wawa....

Love sincerely,
Ayah Maman

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Wednesday, July 4, 2007

offsprings.

dearest bibil n wawa,

mummy and daddy had a big fight few hours ago..mummy was in a losing end..mummy almost lost daddy..almost..

pls be good.. do grow up to be a civilised n respectful child..mummy dont want my little ones to go thru all the bad torments that mummy n daddy had been thru..

we want you to lead a good life..

if im gone one day before our daddy does, pls note that mummy really really adore you and though ive never held you in my arms,my love is always thr..

just in case,this is your cute n adorable daddy,muhd redzman omar..

and this is ur mummy pika pants...wif her fave spongebob tht daddy bought..

this is when we're having sweet and memorable times tgt..

muacks.

p/s: tell daddy i love him so much!
p/s/s: tell daddy too, that mummy wont have the heart to leave him..
p/s/s/s: mummy loves you bibil n wawa!!!

tkcr my lovelies..

with love,
mummy pika pants..

:)

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Stories in our lives,we'll keep them all inside..

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Geloranya Cinta

Menyaksikan ciptaan tuhan
Lihat bintang-bintang kelilingi bulan
Andai dapat ku bina
Mahligai di puncak kayangan

Di lembah gunung rimba kencana
Ku mencari-cari apakah rahsia
Kebahagiaan kita dibuai
gelora...

Kita tempuh segala dugaan
Pertengkaran kini berlalu
Setulus cinta di awal pertemuan
Janji diikat kasih dipadu

Kekasih terangkanlah
Bisikan asmara kita
Janganlah bersedih lagi
Tangisan mengalir di pipi
Tanpa ku sedari
Kini kau kembali
bukannya fantasi
tetapi realiti...

Senikata: Maman n Pika
Lagu: Maman

Lover's Requiem.
Stories in our lives,we'll keep them all inside..

Mummy mummy mummy!!!I love u so much...i hope ur fine as usual...i miss u n dat cant be explain coz its too much....Abg doakan pika akn sampai di singapura selamat...i think ur having a gd time there...hehe....mummy dgr lagu kte tak mlm sebelum tdo?i think u do...

First thing i wanna talk bout problems that we keep facing each n every day....mummy need to undastand me n i need to undastand mummy...abg tknk awk tglkn abg...sakitnye lidah kalau tergigit...sakit lagi hati kalau ditinggal...haiz...i noe dat u wont leave me...remember ur promise after graduate ayte....

In my life n our life....i only wana see U,ur family,my family n BIBIL&WAWA....I juz want this in my life now....listen to me n those who reading this....im gonna b wit NUR SYAFIQAH till the end of time....This heart wont belong to anyone...u see...love is complicated....its juz bout u entering the maze n thinking bout hw to get out....but wen u appreciate love...wen u noe hw to handle love....it'll be like a magical thing n fantasy(but its reality of coz...hehe)world that u never been ther b4...i found my magical princess....that's u

NUR SYAFIQAH BTE ABDUL LATIFF

i love u sooooo much.....more than anything in this world....
thnk u for making me realize the original muhd redzman....thx alot mummy...

Lover's Requiem.
Stories in our lives,we'll keep them all inside..

Friday, June 22, 2007

no words greater than ur love.

ilu. u look so hot in ur uniform honey. whts hotter is that ur my baby.muack!! :)

hey baby boy.

we've had rough times these past few days.. im still figuring out why why why.. my head is always in a whirlwind.. i dun wanna hurt u but at the same time this heart of mine is crying and breaking into million of pieces more often than before..

i may look like i dont care but pls baby,ur name is all that is going thru my mind no matter what im doing or wherever i was.. i tried at my very will to avoid any miscomplications tht we had but in the end both of us suffered..

thanks baby for letting me know who mohd redzman truly is.. not that ive not been noticing but im making my own judgements on things on my own now.. i dont wan things to get more haywire coz it will end bitterly..

i cried like a baby not long ago and u shud know why yeah.. i really cant take it baby.. im sorry.. its tearing me apart slowly.. i really dont like to be forced... once i said no, means no.. and i dont like to repeat things.. im not sure why.. maybe im born as a cancer, they are sensitive n short-tempered creatures u noe..

sigh.. at least i felt a lil bit better now.. we kissed and made up.. thats whats so special abt u darling.. ur so unlike the other guys out there.. so so so different.. thank god ive found u sweets..

seriously baby,i wasnt sure the words that came out from my mouth.. i was thinking but im not sure what i was talking abt.. im sry, but i had he urge to bang my head against the wall just now.. i was about to get my asthma attack.. i thought i was goin to bid my final goodbye...

but no..

i thought of u..
i thought of bibil n wawa..
i thought of my nenek..
and i thought of my family n urs too..

thats when i snapped back into reality..thats when i finally realised im not syafiqah anymore. i was someone else. not sure who though.

it was really scary baby. for a moment,i tot i had lost my mind. or maybe sth emerged into my body. waullahualam bissawab, i dunno.

:(

masyallah...

let this be the first and last time that i had to go thru this.. noone knows if im gone.. no baby,no.. that wont happen again right??

we fought alot of times today.. i kept so many things inside.. i just had to let them go.. and those tears i shed represents the stuffs inside that i was dying to kill..

its ok baby,mummy's doing fine now.. thanks baby.. i now ur always thr to lighten things up.. i noe ur my baby boy.. i noe ur e one for me..

pls baby,tkcr of urself when mummy's not ard.. cut down on ur smoking yeah.. i was sad coz u just smoked infront of me just now.. but nah,its ok.. just think of bibil n wawa.. just absorb them in ur head k..

mummy hope that baby's arms will get better soon.. im worried baby.. dont scratch it coz it will tun out ugly.. baby dont wanna ugly arms right? haha.. den just bear with the itch yeah baby..

n do listen to ibu n abah wen mummy's away.. dey really luv u lots baby.. its time u make it up to them.. mummy knows baby will prove it to them that ur not like what ibu n abah thought of right.. go baby go.. show them that ur their fav son..

before i go, i trust u that u will take good care of urself k baby.. pray for mummy's safety k.. mummy will alwys tink of u baby.. ur permanent in my heart.. noone can take u away from me.. mummy wont let my dear baby go.. i wont n i nvr will..

aite love, mummy relly loves u lots.. baby dont naughty2 k syg.. maybe i shouldnt get angry wen u see other girls la.. yeah,maybe i shouldnt.. haiz.. im sry.. i noe im in e wrong baby.. go on, feast ur eyes on them k.. i wont let out a sound.. coz i love u baby... i reli wanna see u happy.. im sry syg.. mummy's really sry..

if i say im sorry baby, will u forgive me?
when i say im alwys thr, will u believe me?

mmmuuuaaaccckkkzzzzz!!!

ILOVEYOU MOHD REDZMAN OMAR.

tears are filling my eyes now.. im ok baby.. dont u worry abt me.. aite,i'll go wipe these tears n i wanna go to bed..

ya allah ya tuhanku yg maha pengasih lagi pengampun, ampunkan lah segala dosa2 sygku ini.. tunjukkan la beliau ke jln yg benar.. kuatkn la imannya dn terangkn lah hati nya.. bimbingla dia supaya menjadi seorang anak,suami dan ayah yg soleh, penyabar dan penyanyang.. jadikanlah dia seorang yg berguna di masa hadapan kelak.. murahkan la rezekinya dan panjangkan lah umurnya.. berikan la dia semangat untuk terus berjuang dlm kehidupan yg penuh dgn rintangan dan halangan ini.. sedarkn la beliau atas cinta dan syg yg aku sering beri kepadanya,yg tiada tolak bandingannya.. bahawa aku lah satu2 nya gadis yg amat memerlukan sserorang seperti nya,kerana beliaulah yg amat memahami naluri seorang perempuan.. ya allah ya tuhanku, kabulkn lah rintihan da doa2 ku ini..

amin.. insyallah..

tkcr baby.. mummy loves you with every inch of me.. muacks..

love,
-shark.

Lover's Requiem.
Stories in our lives,we'll keep them all inside..

Sunday, June 17, 2007

thx baby.ilu.

cute kan baby i?? hehe.. syg dier!!
im really proud to say that i have a loving and caring boyfiend by my side..sometimes i wish that i would be more appreciative of what he had done to me.. thank you a million baby..muacks!

happy as i am, i realised the hard facts in life.. with my baby boy around,he opened my eyes to the finest things in life.. he taught me that life has more to offer..much much more..

at times, i took things for granted and i know that that shouldnt be the way.. i had always wanted to lead a carefree life with zilch to worry abt.. i just wanna be that little girl who had no problems and worries at all..

but no,life doesnt work out tht way.. and i had only my baby to thank for all that.. terima kasih syg ku bushuk!! muacks!!!

my baby really changed me for the better.. i had better control of my life now and i somewhat know how to prioritise my stuffs.. yeay for shark!!!

the amazing thing was that, he rescued me from falling into deeper traps set by the millions of wolves out there.. fheww!! he's my knight in shining armour,no?

haha..

he's my baby in shining pampers lah!!

hehehe..muacks..

he's the first guy i cried pails for..

he's the first guy im so afraid of losing..

he's the first guy i put so much trust into..

he's the first guy who caught not only my eyes,but also my heart..

he's the only guy i wan to grow old with..

he's just one in million,

absolutely amazing..

if you guys out there wanna talk abt true luv, save it guys.. coz i've found my one and only soulmate.. try me, ive seen enough.. and im really sure that my baby's the one i wanna settle down with..

<3!

this blog will be the witness of the ups and downs tht we face baby.. this blog will also accompany us till we have bibil n wawa in our arms.. muacks!! i love you so much!!

:):):)

its an unbelievable journey that im going thru in my life.. a fairytale that all the other girls out thr would luv to have.. im just so thankful that i could be part of it, and also being the lead actress in it..

my baby's probably asleep soundly now.. heheh.. just look at how cute he is when he sleeps..i guess maman junior will be lyk tht huh.. ahahha..

aite,im turning in too..

take care baby ku bushuk!!

mummy luvs you so so so so much la syg!!

muackssssssssss!!

syg babyku!

love,

shark.

<3!

Lover's Requiem.
Stories in our lives,we'll keep them all inside..

Friday, June 15, 2007

what is love?

love is by far the most unusual feeling of mixed emotions of happiness,joy and satisfaction.Its when you feel you had millions and millions of butterflies fluttering in your stomach.they say love makes the world go round. i say,love makes my life worthwhile. :)

love is the gift of giving,without expecting anything back in return. Its when you do good to others and receive kindness in all other unexpected ways.

love is giving your undivided attention to your partner and also exchanging words of appreciation to each other.generally, you will feel darn good when ur with ur loved ones, never even wanting to pause for a millisecond to watch the world pass by.

love is anything else,but undescribable.it takes you on a ride,a rollercoaster ride to be more specific. somtimes ur up, at other times ur down. wen the momentum builds up, love brings you to all the uexpected places, and spill words you'll never think you'll say. when it comes tumbling down, you feel like taking the knife and stabbing countless times on the hart coz of the excruciating pain you had to bear.

love, just what is love?

love, something pure and everlasting.

love, knows no boundaries.

love, is sensationally magical.

love, is that tingling feeling that makes your hart jump out of ur chest.

love, is the attachment that results from deeply appreciating another's goodness.

oh well.

let me just share a piece of info i've found recently. its really helpful though. :)

do read this baby.it not only boost our confidence but will guide us through what we call 'hardships in love'. :)

People in healthy relationships have the following characteristics.

1. They allow for individuality.

2. They experience both oneness with and separateness from another.

3. They bring out the best qualities in self and another.

4. They accept endings.

5. They experience openness to change and exploration.

6. They invite growth in the other person.

7. They experience true intimacy.

8. They feel the freedom to ask honestly for what is wanted.

9. They experience giving and receiving in the same way.

10. They do not attempt to change or control the other.

11. They encourage self-sufficiency of partners.

12. They accept limitations of self and other.

13. They do not seek unconditional love.

14. They accept and respect commitment.

15. They have a high self-esteem.

16. They trust the memory of the beloved; they enjoy solitude.

17. They express feelings spontaneously.

18. They welcome closeness; risk vulnerability.

19. They care with detachment.

20. They affirm equality and personal power of self and other.

this piece is really informative. i'll get back to this whenever thunder strikes,just keep it handy. :)

baby pls get well soon. i love you bucuk ku!! muacks!! :)

we're going thru rocky situations these past few days and im just glad that we managed to pull it all through.thanks for making me realise the importance of being in love baby.thanks to let me understand the true meaning of being there for each other and taking our love to greater heights.thank you syg ku!!

at times, litte voices in my head whispers questions like 'why is he still so good to despite all that i've done?' , 'what makes his love flame burning so strong for me?'...

well, at other times, i think you deserve someone wayy waaay better than me baby. im such a pain in the assss. dont you think so?

hmmm. i've found the answers to my burning questions baby, you dont have to explain it to me..

*ITS BCAUSE YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH.*

ask me, how did i know??

i didnt, i just FELT it coming to me & knocking on my door every single day. :)))

baby, ur really special to me, do you realise that? hehe..

muacks!!

love,

shark.

<3!

Lover's Requiem.
Stories in our lives,we'll keep them all inside..